Not many people know this me, and it is even hard for me to talk about online with people that I don’t know IRL (in real life). I am TTC (trying to conceive), and it has been a lot harder than I ever expected it to be.
I had been off of birth control pills for almost a year and a half, using the temp and cervical fluid method from the book Taking Charge of Your Fertility. I have been charting for 5 months and with babymaking in mind, we have been sure to DTD (do the deed) with ovulation in mind and every month we thought for sure this month it had to have worked.
Not so much luck yet. My husband actually hid the thermometer on me for awhile, and I didn’t chart this month. I was aware of my CM, and I found the thermometer in time to track the shift to show I did actually ovulate. We DTD in the correct time frame, and I am sure that I am within a day of my period. The looming devastation of it it horrible. If I thought I hated Aunt Flo as a teenager, I had no idea. Every time it shows up now, I feel like a failure. Like my body let me down. I sit and wonder about timing, something wrong with me, something wrong with him, it just isn’t the time?
It will happen just on its own time, I guess. My affirmation until then ~ “My body and mind are prepared for and accept pregnancy and motherhood.”
I totally understand!
I finally stopped charting a few years ago, but we keep hoping for a PG someday. Hoping you are blessed soon! 
Michele
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Thanks Michele for just saying you understand. I’m sorry that you do though. You seem to be such a great mom, and I hope you get to experience pregnancy too.
When did you adopt? From which country? How long did it take? I’ve always wanted to adopt… but after I’ve had a few kids of my own. I guess we’ll see what happens first.
I totally understand and I’ll be praying for you. You might want to look into progesterone. It was 5 years after we married until we found we were having my son. He is 8 now, and even though I’m 40…we are still holding out hope for another. God bless…Ann’Re
Ann’Re – I have heard talk about progesterone on the Mothering forums, but I never inquired for more information. Is this the over the counter cream? I will read up on it.
As far as I can tell, I have had 3 really normal cycles with a clear shift for ovulation and a long enough luteal phase. One cycle the luteal phase was real short and one cycle I was sick with the flu. :shrug:
Thank you for keeping me in your prayers. I will keep you in mine as well.. I’m sure your son would love to be a big brother.
Jennifer